Nonsense

im sick.. but i dont know how to tell..
really really sick..
wish someone could take this burden from me..
i wanna go somewhere..
anywhere..

Had this conversation..

P(boy): Why are you sad?
N(myself): I dont know..huhm.. i dont know..
P: There must be a reason from your sadness..
N: maybe.. i just dont know..
P: maybe your a retard..
N: maybe.. i am.. so are you..? hehehe
P: yes.. but i'm much better than you..
N: o well.. maybe thats why im sad.. im sad because i feel alone..nobody loves me..
P: Im here..
N: Yes, I know.. but its different..
P: Why?
N: I just need someone to mend and fix my life.. can you mend my heart? can you fix my life for me?
P: Haha! Come here.. I'll comfort you..
N: haha! Hug! Can you help me? (usher song)
P: I dont like that song
N: wanna hear my song?
P: Go on..
N: Used to like the sound of the rain
And feel your arms around me
Together we go insane,
But I wake up to where I should be
I've longed for the wind,
They touch me through my feelings
And you'll never know till they begin,
What you want is really what it means


Don't wanna be forever blue
'Cause I deserve some love that's true
Finding it the hard way
And wishing for it everyday
I guess I was wrong to want you, yeah
'Cause I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid
To be forever blue